It’s been awhile since I’ve posted mostly because I went back to college to get a degree as a paralegal. It seems the only writing I’ve been able to complete lately has been essays, term papers and legal briefs. Plus at least in my relationship with Loki things seem to go in cycles and seasons Loki is always most present during the warmer months then I don’t see or hear from Him much from say mid-November through March. Once the growing season begins and things turn warm Loki is back right on up through harvest time. It’s just a pattern I’ve noticed over the past several years.
Loki is definitely back and as usual He brings many changes. This year He was very big on the idea of starting a garden I got most of what He wanted done, of course I fell a bit short on cash for all the things He wanted planted. There’s been many suggestions of doing some traveling this summer. Lots of suggestions of going camping, or to the beach, or hey let’s go camping on the beach. I know Loki likes to travel, and it’s something I haven’t gotten much of a chance to do in a long time even though it is something I love too. Those have been Loki’s influences in my day to day life.
In spiritual matters things are turning quite serious again. Loki wants me to start journeying again seems I have lessons to learn Elsewhere again. Loki through me for a bit of a loop recently I had a wedding to Him here, but He never really pushed for one Elsewhere now it seems to be very important to Him. Loki has also stressed getting to know my Disir and starting to honor my ancestors. Despite having read plenty about it especially, on Galina Krasscova’s blog, it’s just something I’ve avoided mostly because my most immediate kin who’ve passed away were fundamentalist Christians, and I’m not sure they’d approve of my going Pagan. Secondly, my dad was adopted and my mother grew up in the foster care system. I don’t know much about either side of the bio family. I know a bit from research I did, but there are more holes to be filled in than things I know for sure about any of them. I’ll try it and see how it goes.
There has also been more interactions with those closest to Loki. Hel has shown up mostly requesting her own alter space, and letting me know there’s a Day of the Dead skull figurine that she really likes that would be perfect on her alter. Besides Hel, I’m having more more interaction with Odin and Angrboda. It would seem that They have been dropping anvil sized hints about the work They want me to do for over a year, and I’d been missing it until recently. When I decided to go back to school I thought it had little to do with any plan They had I even doubted myself as a godspouse because everyone else seemed to have some work to do for Them. Bloggers, spiritworkers, people who could do divination, healers, craftspeople, artists, community leaders, and so on and here I was doing nothing. Then I noticed a certain pull to certain topics I kept coming across articles about feminism and women’s rights, LGBT rights such as gay marriage, the fact that their is still so much racism in America, religious freedom such as the legal battle the Maetreum of Cybele is involved in all these topics I became passionate about. Then it hit me I have a deep interest in Constitutional law if I go into any type of law it will be fighting for the basic rights of others. Shortly after Loki informed me you’ve found your passion and your calling. “We want people willing to fight for our people, and the causes important to Us and them.” He explained not all battles need be fought with weapons some need to be fought with words and intellect. So I’m going to get my degree as a paralegal, and then go on to law school. Besides my college professors it seems that there will be lesson from Loki and Angrboda. Angrboda seems to want to teach me more about diversity and marginalized groups. Odin simply wants an oath that my career will be devoted to helping people in the Pagan/Heathen/Wiccan community.
Getting back to the topic of my Disir Loki has pointed out that he would like me to study one aspect of my ancestry I haven’t explored much. I spent a good couple years trying to trace down my dad’s biological family’s roots and confirming that yes indeed my dad does have Native American ancestry. I’ve learned what I can about the culture and spirituality of that side of the family and incorporated some Native American practices into my own devotional work. My mom’s maiden name is McGee so it’s pretty obvious she has Scottish ancestry. Loki has mentioned what Norse ancestry I have comes mainly from that side of the family, and that it’s a pretty even mix of Norse and Celtic ancestry. So Loki has encouraged me to learn a bit about the Celtic Gods. In doing so I came across this article http://www.druidry.org/library/gods-goddesses/norse-loki-and-celtic-lugh . It certainly brings up an interesting theory I’m not entirely sure if there is a connection or what exactly it is if there is one but I’d love to hear any UPG or research that anyone has on the topic.